Beatfreakz

Best ABDC performance thus far!!!



Make sure you press the "HQ" button for High Definition Version!^^^

So Sudden

The reason behind the title is:

I think its my favorite album by one of my favorite bands. The Hush Sound is a Indie group from Chicago that has a very soft, jazzy type feel to them. I was lucky enough to see them when I attended a FOB concert with my sis (who also introduced me to The Hush Sound).. Thanks $B.

Another Note...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD! He's 43 going on 24. A damn cool dad if you ask me. haha.

"Yeah, you know what this is.. It's a celebration bitches!" - Louis Vutton Don (Kanye West)

But now about what is really the reason I blogged out of nowhere...

I've came to realization that there is no one here in Missouri for me. Searching for someone to love or even a possible "soul mate" is practically impossible (comparative to finding a needle in a haystack). But why should I have to search for something that should just happen? Call me crazy but I feel that waiting for the right person is the only path to take right now. There are far more important things in life such as strengthening my relationship with not only my family and friends, but also with God. What good is it to constantly search for someone to be with if there is one here?.. I feel that love will eventually fall in my lap in the most unexpected moment of my life. Don't get me wrong, I'm going to have the time of my life out here in Cape Girardeau but just with a different purpose.

Love in general isn't the the only stressful thing in my life at the moment.. I been here in Missouri not even a year and I'm being asked to graduate early and finish SEMO at the end of the Fall Semester of 2009. Most people would say that its a great thing to be graduating early and to be going back to Cali sooner than expected.. but that's where I say.. "HOLD UP!" ... Southeast Missouri State University is where I will be spending the rest of my college career. Coming from California and transferring from 3 colleges (San Jose State, Laney & Ohlone) pretty much qualifies me to have experienced a good portion of the college system there.. Coming here to Missouri and given the chance to play football and get paid for it is not only is a great thing but it also makes me obligated to stay at one school. I mean... going to 3 different colleges in Cali allowed me to experienced many things... but I feel that it is time for me to settle down with one college and enjoy all that it has to offer. Making me leave early when I just got here kind of hurts... The one school that I can finally say that's where I'm going to be for 2 years... is being shut down by the coaches... They are suggesting that I load up class hours and take more than required in order for them to use my scholarship money for the Spring and give it to an incoming recruit. Who gives them the right to control my work load and my future?? It makes me mad at the fact that it's all about money and not about a person's education. Whatever.

To end on a good note...

516 Dub Ave.! Dirtbag Crew! Hella Stoops!

gone.

Jizz In My Pants

SEMO Gymnastics

The SEMO Women's Gymnastics team were the victors in Friday nights meet against Southern Utah & Centenary. I was surprised at the turnout and how good the gymnists actually are. Congrats on the big win and I plan on going to more meets in the future.

Fun In The Snow

3 days of no school due to an ice/snow storm means... PLAYING IN THE SNOW!!

Cold Ass Cape!

Today marks the beginning of something that could be a great thing or could be a disaster. Tonight and tomorrow we are expecting either an ICE STORM that would cover everything with at least an inch of ice or a shit load of SNOW consisting of at least 5-10 inches by tomorrow morning. Just a couple of hours ago, it was already looking bad because it started to rain (we all know that rain and sub-freezing temperatures do not mix very well). The reason it would such a good thing would be that there is a good chance that school will be cancelled and we would all have several days off. =) The bad side would be that it is highly dangerous driving and even walking in such weather. There could easily be a car accident or even a nasty spill.. neither are any fun. =/ I'm hoping and praying that we get out of school but im also doing the same to keep everyone safe during these circumstances. Gone.

Over It

It feels good to finally move on.
We had a good run.
It's a shame it didn't go as planned.
I wish you only the best.

I Got That HEAT From The Streets!

Being warm is no longer an issue in my room.

Before winter break I had to dress like this:

Now that I've invested in a SPACE HEATER:

I've been able to dress like this in my room:

Big thanks to technology for coming up with such a brilliant piece of machinery and thanks to my moms for getting me this thang. You're the best! =)

Studying Overseas

Today I did a lot of thinking.. and I came with the idea of studying abroad for my last semester at SEMO. It didn't take much to figure out where I wanted to go. SOUTH KOREA! I went to see a few people and asked a bunch of questions regarding this whole ordeal. I met with a guy at the international center building and best believe he was informative! Here's how it all plays out:

1. The housing cost for the entire semester will be paid for through my football scholarship.
2. The cost of the flight will be to a minimum. $950 Flight - $850 (paid for through scholarship) = $100 flight!
3. Speaking & teaching English to Korean children will earn me $650/per month.
4. Being there for 6 months will guarantee me to be fluent in the language.
5. An experience of a lifetime that will end up being a pretty sweet deal.

I'm basically getting paid to visit and take college courses in a country that is very much foreign to me. My mother was born and raised in South Korea, moved to the US when she was 17 years old and is damn near a white woman now. LOL. I've never been there before and come Spring Semester of 2010, I'll be gone from January til about June. And when I get back, I'll be graduating from SEMO! It's all in the works.. hope it all goes as planned. =)

Winter Break

Here is a list of things that I enjoyed when being on winter break:

- Seeing all the family. Love all y'all!

- Seeing all of my friends. I miss you guys already!

- Meeting new friends (both friends of $b's or random friends that are DOPE! =p)

- Power Hour wit the boys! 10 beers in 60 min. Crazy!

- Clubbing in the City two nights in a row with some awesome gals!

- Being my mom's personal mover. It aint no thang!

- Getting the chance to kick it with Dad. Priceless. Do the right thing!

- Overall, realizing there is no place like home and cherishing every moment.



Following a radom list of things are random pictures during break! Enjoy!

New & Improved

I was so bored that I put all kinds of stickers on my laptop. I've always wanted to do something like this but I never had the time. It took forever to finish and it was really hard to make it look half-way decent. Some inspiration came from Common's new album entitled Universal Mind Control. Hip-Hop saved my life!

I also tried new things with my blog. I was tired of the tiny ass pictures I was posting in the past so I selected a new layout which stretched out the posts so I can add larger pics. It's worked so far.

Jackson (1/4 of the "Fun Yuns")

Instant Favorite

The Revenge of the Nerds is probably one of my favorite movies of all time! How can you not like the fact that the nerds get the girls and the jocks don't. Classic!

All I Want For Christmas...

Foreign Family x Flip The Script x Selector Varsity Jacket

Click to ENLARGE

http://www.digitalgravel.com/servlet/Detail?no=8761

I wear X-Large. Thanks Santa. =)

Tell It Like It Is

The sign used to say: "Yes We Can Cape County. Obama."

This is what is left of the Obama sign that I put in front of the house the other day. It was burned and the rest of the sign either dissolved from the fire or is lost. To make a long story short... The Midwest is strongly republican or seriously racist. Hmm.. A matter of fact they are BOTH!

There was some serious controversy within this household when I put that Sign up in front of the house. I put it up Monday afternoon and found out that it was immediately taken down by one of my housemates. So I went outside to realize that the sign was laying in the grass off of it's post. To save me from getting into a confrontation in the future, I took the sign up to my room to put it on the wall. As I was walking into the house with the sign, The people across the street yelled out, "Throw it away!" ...Another housemate went to my room and told me that the person that took the sign down has no right to do that. He also said that it was un-American to not allow me to express my support. So he then took the sign from me and put it up himself. MY DAWG!

Now there is a political war within the house. But I express no hatred towards the candidate I'm not supporting. I'm Pro-Obama, Not Anti-McCain. The person that took down the sign is Anti-Obama. He even bought a t-shirt that hated on Obama directly. Watching the 2nd Presidential Debate last night just made me want to support Obama even more. McCain's comments were complete low-blows and out of line. He was attacking Obama while Barack kept his composure and spoke with great confidence. The Debate made me sick to the point that I wanted to change the channel but I decided to watch the entire thing.

The worst part about all of this... I'm unable to vote this Presidential Election. I am registered in California and I cant go back home to get my absentee ballot. It is also too late to register here in Missouri so I'm shit out of luck. That doesn't mean that I will stop showing support. HOPE & CHANGE is what we need as a nation.

I also got to see some of my family when I played at Jacksonville State in Alabama. It was great to see all of you guys. It also feel great to reunite my two grandmas. =) Love you all!

Obama-Nation

I just took advantage of a great sale that went on yesterday at Digital Gravel. I got an email from DG saying that they will be having a 50% OFF the entire website for a 12 hour period for those people needing some gear for back to school. Since my check came in a few days earlier, it didn't hurt to purchase some stuff from their website. What I got was a steal... 2 tees and a hat for $35.50... can't beat that. =) I told $b about it. She knows wassup.

This Entry Is Way Overdue

Hey guys!! It's been a very long time since I last blogged. Most of you think that I'm still homesick because that was my last entry before I actually got busy. Just to let everybody know... I'm doing just fine. I'm in my second month of school and I'm lovin' it! I've made a lot of friends and I'm fitting in a-okay.

There are some ups and downs to being busy out here. I find myself forgetting about those who are important to me back at home. I'm trying really hard to become comfortable in my life here in Missouri and it leaves me little to no time to keep in touch with loved ones. But I want everyone to know that I'm going to make a conscientious effort to keep in touch with y'all. <-- (the south is getting to me. haha.)

We got our scholarship checks in last week and it's great to see a large sum of $$$ appearing out of nowhere in my bank account. Direct deposit is the best invention ever. And since I'm on a forever long mission to complete my room, I went and bought a whole bunch of stuff over the weekend to make myself more at home. My room is actually starting to look like a room. The only things I think I'm missing is another source of light, a dresser, and trim around the floor, windows and door. =) It's all coming along great. WALMART was my main contributor to my room looking good. Here are some videos that I uploaded on Vimeo that display before and after footage of my room. I apologize if that AFTER video is a little hard to see. The lighting in my room is horrible when it starts to get dark. Enjoy.




Over the weekend, We got a taste of Hurricane Ike. Nothing to serious but we had really strong winds that took out a few cars and our power was out all day Sunday. Here is what I woke up to...



Here is a little preview of my house of for the people back at home. It's a nice crib with 6 football players living in it. For some reason this house is referred to as the "football house" and rumor has it that we throw the best parties... I'm just throwing that out there. BANG!

I'm going to be dedicated to blog more often. But until next time... peace!

Shout-Outs:

-Bobo and the Balboa Girls. I hope all is well and from what I see from JPL's blog, your house looks great.

-My boy Deepy is finally 21. It's a shame that I wasn't there to share it with you like you did with mine. Good times... Miss you bro.

-Sarah & Mom. Love you guys. Straight up.

-Uncle Jack. You da man!

Homesick

These past 6 weeks have been a life changing experience for me so far. Coming all the way out to Missouri sounded like a exciting adventure that would allow me to see and understand a whole new surrounding. I must admit, this past month and a half has been nothing but a struggle. A struggle to find out who I really am as a person and to test my emotions as I leave the people I love and care about back at home. This test not only quizzes me on my willingness to adapt to a culture that is foreign but also test my physical, mental, & spiritual strength.

I have been fighting to prove to myself that I can compete at a D1 level, but so far... my efforts have left me disappointed. I tell myself that I'm here for strictly business and to show people here in Missouri and the people back at home in California that I can do things on my own and can take care of business. It is so hard to know that I have nothing but my own efforts to take me where I have to go as a man.... .... I'm so drained that I sometimes just want to call it quits. I know that the people I love and care about are only a call away, but I want to be able to hug them and embrace them because I miss them so much.... .... It's so hard to write an entry like this.... I'm breaking down emotionally and I can't even see the screen clearly due to the tears that are building up and running down my face. I'm so homesick. I.... .... can't even explain the things that are going on in my head right now. I want to say so much but I'm afraid that I won't stop crying. Sometimes I wish that I never left home. I wonder if this was the right path for me to take in life. If being out here in Missouri is one of the chapters written in my life story. I wish I could be with all of you right now...

Sarah:
You know you mean the world to me, right? You are my best friend and the best sister any brother can ask for. I miss the stupid things we used to laugh about all day long. I miss the times we spent in my room just chillin' with Kranny. I just want you to know that I'm here for you, sis... I want you to be able to tell me anything without hesitation. I want to be able to be there for you at all times... even if I'm 4,000 miles away. Even though I strive to make the Lord my number 1 person in my life, just know that there can be no better replacement then you. I love you so much, Sarah. Dammit I miss you.........

Jennifer:
It's been 6 weeks since we've been apart. I know I was acting a little shady when I first came out here but it was to help me deal with trying to get over the fact that I had to force a break-up between us. You mean so much to me and I'm so glad that we are trying to make things better. It was just so hard at first because this whole thing was forced even though we really didn't want it to end like this. I know that having a long distance relationship is one of the toughest things to do (especially at our age), but just know that we overcame most of the obstacles along the way. It tears me apart to know that I have to find someone else. But the fact of the matter is that... I don't want to find anyone else. The pact that we made for the future is here to stay and I want you to know that I honestly see me with you later on down the road. When that day will come when we get back together.. only time will tell. But I want to assure you that it will happen. I love you, I miss you, and I want to kiss you. What is Love? Love is Us.

Mom:
You have know idea how much I miss you, Ma. You are the main reason I'm even here today. You've helped me in so many situations that I couldn't have dealt with myself. You taught me to respect women and to treat others as I would like to be treated. You've raised me up to stay out of trouble and to find the right friends that would eventually help me later on in life. I want you to know that this is going to be my turning point in life. From here on out, I am going to be a changed young-man. I don't have room for excuses for why I can't get stuff done. I'm going to suck it up and take matters into my own hands. I know that you are scared/afraid of me having to manage money and to have to budget everything. But just know that I'm here to prove to you that I can do things on my own for once. I'm here for one thing and one thing only. Focus. I don't have room to make mistakes anymore. You are my role model and my Mother and I'm going to do whatever it takes to make you proud. I love you, mom.

Blueprint 3!!!

Football Update

Here is just an update on how I'm doing here in SEMO during double days. Tomorrow is going to be our first day in pads and I'm quite excited. We can actually bang and I can showcase my talent. These first few days have been long and tiring... I don't even want to think about how the next two weeks are going to be. They are probably going to be the longest 3 weeks of my life. Everything is so mapped up and scheduled. We have to be at certain places at certain times and so on. Here are some pictures I took today. Get at 'em.

These are my knee braces that I have to wear during every practice and every game. These are the real deal. Don Joy is what every Division 1 and every Pro linemen wear. These are no joke and are a bitch. They are hard to get used to but it's not all that bad once you break them in. These braces are not only high performance but also high priced. The price of these two braces are $1,800. yeah.

This is my locker with my helmet and shoulder pads on top. I'm here daily and basically live out of this thing. My boy, Robby (the equipment manager), hooked it up with all the goods. He knew that I wanted a Revolution helmet so he told people that they ran out and waited to give one to me. He's the man when it comes to washing our stanky clothes everyday and hooking it up with all the SEMO gear.